What i was thinking when i married Tom

Tom when the man caught my eye so many years back i could not help but try to talk to him. I was supposed to waiting for Gatsby, but who knows how long he will be gone, or if he will even come back from war alive. Even if he did end up coming home alive, there is a chance that he might be greatly injured, and i am not up to trying to take care of a man for the rest of my life. On the other hand, Tom is quite and attractive man, and he is rich. There is the saying that "rich girls don't marry poor boys" and that is exactly where i am headed with Gatsby. After a little bit of consideration, i decided that i was going to go out with Tom, and he turned out to be a better man than i thought. I did love him, and i think he would make a good father to my children. Gatsby will have no problem finding some other women, and no doubt will end up happy with whatever he ends up doing. It is better for everyone if i marry Tom, especially for me because i will end up rich and happy. I will definitely end up so much happier if i marry a rich man rather than end up with a poor man trying to make a living. Marrying Tom is my best bet to end up happy.

What i was feeling when i first saw Gatsby after many years

Jay Gatsby. The first words that came to my head when i saw his face for the first time after years of wondering where he had gone and who he had ended up with. I was sure that he had married someone else when i never tried to reconnect with him when he came back from war. But when i saw him standing in front of me with an empty wedding ring finger, all the feelings started rushing back. I thought i could controll them, and that i was just feeling like an old love had returened to me, but as soon as out little "date" started getting good, i knew for sure that i was feeling something for him again . I also knew that it could be a problem because i was married to Tom. But at that moment when i had rediscovered my loved, nothing else mattered in my heart, and i was completely head over heals for the beautiful man that was standing in front of me. So many feelings were rushing through my heart at that time. I could tell i loved him, and that i had missed him dearly, but i am not sure what to do with Tom. Do i leave him for Gatsby, do i just tell Gatsby i am married now, or do i try to have both men in my life without the other knowing. So many choices and i am not sure what to do, all i know is that my feelings as so confused and i have no idea what i am going to end up to do.

Why I didn't go to Gatsby's funeral

When i found out the Gatsby had been killed, I had a terrible feeling in my stomach. For some reason I had a strange inkling that I had something to do with his death, even if I wasn't there or ever talked to George in my life. Once the word got around to me that he was dead, my heat died a little. I loved him so much, and for him to be gone from my life forever is such a strange and very saddening thing to experience. At first, i thought i was going to go to the funeral, but then i realized that Gatsby was gone from my life forever, and it would only make Tom more upset with me if i went. I thought that it was time to focus on Tom completely, because he is the only man left in my life right now. If Tom did not want to go then i would not go, which he did not want to. I realized that if i went behind Tom's back, and he found out, that i would be in so much trouble with him. I think it is time that i make Tom happy, and put him first instead of myself. Therefore, i decided that going to Gatsby's funeral would only cause more pain than good and decided it was better for everyone if I just let Gatsby's close friends attend the funeral, and not the women who he loved, who also had been cheating on her husband with him.

Why I went to Nick's house and why I stayed

When Nick mentioned that I should come over to visit him for lunch, I graciously accepted, not knowing what I just got myself into. I knew that Gatsby was going to be there, and I wanted to see him, as crazy as it sounds and know for sure that all the feelings that I had for Gatsby were gone. I had even told Nick this too, the part about Gatsby's and my love being a burnt out candle. Within the first few minutes I was sure I was right too! Gatsby was so awkward I did not know what to do or say. I just knew that this meeting was important to him, and it was the least I could do to not leave a minute early, I owed him that much. Eventually, Nick left for a little but, and while he was gone, the old Gatsby, the one I fell in love with when I was a young girl was back. I could tell Nick could see the love radiating from me when he looked at me, and even more so right when he left us alone again when Gatsby started playing the piano. I feel like I am a teenager again, falling in love fast, way to fast. The whole meeting with Gatsby, I seemed to have forgotten about Tom. My love for Gatsby totally erased him from my mind. Once the dinner and everything was over, and I had left and regained my composure I finally realized that I have a serious problem on my hands. I love Tom, but now I see that I have rekindled my love with Gatsby, and I can see this might have a terrible ending if I do not play my cards right.

What I was feeling when I killed someone

It is all such a blurr, but from what i can make out, I am deeply ashamaed. I was driving the car that killed the women Tom was cheating on me with. I did not know that it was her at the time, of coarse, but others think otherwise. All I remember is I asked Gatsby if I could drive, I thought it would calm me down because I was still rather upset about the whole conversation between Gatsby and Tom, when the next thing I knew, there was a women in the road. I'm not the best driver so I was not sure what to do in a situation like this, but I remember being so terrified when I saw her in my way. I tried to swerve around her, but there was a car coming on the other side of the road, and I am not strong enough to sacrifice myself for another person, so I ended up swerving back into the women. I felt the terrible impact that made by body cringe. I knew at that moment that I had just killed someone, someone who I did not know at all. I wanted to cry or scream, but by body was numb from the sight of what I just saw and the realization of what I did did not settle in until when accident was miles away. I feel terrible, and I am even more terrified about what Tom is going to do to me when he finds out. I feel like the world is falling around me and I don't know what to do, all I can think about is the look on the women's face right before I hit every trace of life out of her eyes with the ugly ton of steel I was driving.

What I was thinking when Tom and Gatsby were fighting

Today, Gatsby asked me if I truly loved him, or if I was just playing him when, in my heart, I truly loved Tom. I was not really sure what to say when he asked the question that has be on my mind since I first discovered that Gatsby was not only back in town, but was back in my life. On one hand, I did love Gatsby a long time ago when I was a younger women, with less to lose, like my house, and my reputation. On the other hand, I was married to Tom, but i do definitely have feelings for Gatsby; I fell like a cheater. But now, staring Tom in the face, I do not really know what to think. I do love Tom, but I also love Gatsby, and that love has never gone away. What I do not understand is why Gatsby is making me say this stuff in front of Tom. Even though he has done me wrong, and done unforgivable things, I love that man. The pain in his eyes in unbearable when I mutter the words " I never loved him" to Gatsby; such a lie. I may be planning to leave Tom, but something wants me to stay, even if I do not say it. I am just utterly confused and I just stare at them as they fight, unable to speak a word in my, Tom's, or Gatsby's defense. All the courage I had mustered up minutes ago gone, I think it is time to leave this awful place, and give myself some time to work out whom I really want to be with.